A Reflection on the Occasion of a Memorial Service
for the Life and Witness of
Thomas William Secules
All Saints’ Church, Southern Shores, NC
April 29, 2017
Thomas E. Wilson, Friend
In
John’s Gospel Jesus says: “And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come
again and will take you to myself, so that where I am, there you may be also.
And you know the way to the place where I am going." Thomas said to him,
"Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?"
Jesus said to him, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one
comes to the Father except through me."
It
has always been an irritation that, in John’s Gospel, it is Thomas, the rather
dull, dim-witted disciple, who just does not understand. I used to wonder if my
name was my destiny as the one who just never could get around to understanding
Jesus. But Tom Secules had the same name, and he was never dull or dim-witted
and he understood Jesus as his friend whom he shared with anyone he met.
When
I was much younger, in the 1950’s, I was given a gift of a crystal radio set
which I put together and, after the lights went out, I would use an earphone
and listen in bed to the Sunday evening preachers. They explained this passage
from John to me in a very literal way. I was told that I must accept Jesus as
my personal Lord and Savior in order to get into the heaven above the sky after
I die and, if I did not, I would burn in the everlasting fires of hell. To
“Believe” was to accept the doctrines in the inerrant Bible, and if I did not,
God would banish me to the outer darkness reserved for Papists, pagans, Jews,
Muslims, Hindus, and unbaptized African savages.
Over
the next 60 years, I let my crystal set get mislaid, and I tuned into transistor
radios and stereo systems to listen to Folk, Jazz, and Rock and Roll. Only much later did I wander back to this
passage from John. My understanding was that the place that Jesus was referring
to was not a place of geography but of being in the full heart of the Christ,
the creative energy of God who promised through Jesus that when two or three
are gathered, Christ would be there in the space between us. It did not matter
where I was or how good I was, God’s spirit, as Jung said, “summoned or not God
is present”.
I
came to understand that the “Way” was not a path to somewhere else like a
heaven after we were dead but a way of living as if God’s will be done on earth
as it is in heaven.. The “Way” meant learning to care for neighbor as Jesus did
so that the Creative Spirit of God, the Christ, would give us the power to walk
humbly so to love, even our enemies, wanting what is best for them even when
they don’t have our best interests at heart. The “Way” meant to forgo passing
judgment on others, as Jesus did, even when you are right. The “Way” meant taking up the towel and being
a servant, as Jesus did. Some days are easier than others, but the journey and
the destination are the same and, with the Spirit of the Risen Lord, we would
never be alone. But there are days when I need a coach, a fellow traveler, a
model, someone who would keep me honest, and over the years God has gracefully
given to me and fellow pilgrims that kind of coach - and one of the best was
Tom Secules.
For
Tom, the “Way” also meant to keep his promises, to honor his commitments, and
to cherish his beloved family, friends, community, and church. When I came here,
Tom’s wife Beth was on the search committee and Tom was on the Vestry welcoming
us as he wanted to see the best in me and to make sure I would do my best for
the church. He served several times on
the vestry and those times he showed true leadership. He was forceful but not
disagreeable in handling differences, because what he was working for was what
would be best for the church. For him “Semper Fi” was not just a slogan he
learned long ago in the Marine Corps- it was a way of life. He would pass on
the formula to me that he was not an ex-Marine or a former Marine. He was
always a Marine but in a different uniform and in a different phase of life.” For
he was faithful to his God, his country, his wife, his family, his community,
his friends, his church and his
neighbor. He had been a coach and knew that the team was more important than
any player, but each player had to be guided to use their talents to the
fullest on a daily basis. As Satchel Page used to say, “You win a
few, you lose a few. Some get rained out. But you got to dress for all of
them.”
To
dress up for the important game of being a follower of Jesus is not about
uniforms, insignias, or special equipment, but to prepare ourselves mentally,
physically and spiritually each day. For most of my years here I, “Tom”, would
meet each week with my brother “Tom S” (Secules) and the person we called OBT,
the “Other Brother Tom”. We began when Tom was chosen as Lay Rector of a
Cursillo team and he asked me to be one of the Spiritual Directors. OBT, The
Other Tom, was recruited to be on the music team and Coach Tom, the Lay Rector,
wanted us to meet weekly to prepare ourselves spiritually. After the Cursillo
weekend we continued to meet. Sometimes we would meet in my office, sometimes
we would meet at our homes over some good scotch, and sometimes over dinner
with our wives. Years later we would meet with other people as well. We would spend
an hour answering three questions: 1) What was your moment closest to Christ
this week? 2) What has been your study this week to nourish your relationship
with Christ? 3) What has been your action this week to be an outward and
visible sign of God’s Kingdom in the world?
Since the
worship services seemed to be the center of the church’s life it seemed only
natural that the “moment closest to Christ” would have something to do with
worship, and many times it did. Tom loved filling in for acolytes, lighting the
candles and carrying the processional cross when we would have services in the
middle of the week as for Memorial services and the acolytes were in school. He
would fill in as his way of honoring the life and ministry of the church member
who had died. Death did not stop Tom being a good friend. He loved serving as a
Lay Reader because he had a love for God’s word. He was humbled when he served
as a Eucharistic Minister being able to symbolically bring God’s healing
strength by bringing the cup for those who need strength to partake of the blood
of Christ to make it through the day when they attended the church service and
to bring it to homes and hospitals for those who were unable to make it here. It was that sense of being on a team and
helping out. When he carried the cross in procession he reminded me of a Marine
on parade; disciplined and proud to serve for something greater than himself;
“Semper Fi!” He enjoyed being a greeter and welcoming strangers to the church
he loved and to welcome parishioners who had been away to know that they had
been missed.
The “moment closest to Christ” could also when he would listen to a friend go through a difficulty as he shared the burden with a friend after a round of golf over a beer. God was not locked up in a church building but was whenever two or three gathered together in love; Tom knew the Christ was there and he hallowed those moments. You could always count on Tom for a listening ear. Tom’s quiet nonjudgmental listening ear was really helpful for me and OBT, his other brother Tom, as many times we would share prayers for what was in our hearts. Over the years each of our wives had horrible encounters with ill health and we would worry about our children for no matter how old your children are you worry about them. I remember one week when he had been so busy helping care for Beth, he apologized that he had done no action outside the home and I and OBT reminded him that Christ was being honored when he was faithfully continuing his Holy Vow; “for better, for worse, in sickness of in health.” Marriage is a ministry and to the God who calls us into this ministry we ask to be given the grace, strength and will to serve faithfully.” God is known when people take their vows seriously and faithfully. We counseled together about people we knew who needed some help. Many of our discussions were not about church stuff but centered on love we had for our families and friends; as the Hymn goes “God is love and where true love is; God himself is there.” In our meetings and in our lives touched by those meetings we won a few, we lost a few. Some got rained out. But each week the coach would make sure we dressed for all of them. We gave God thanks for wins, we assured each other about the forgiveness for our losses, we encouraged each other to put up with the rain, and we pledged to be there with each other.
I was only one of so many who were gently coached by
Tom Secules and gathered strength from him and the God Tom served. If I were to
choose the Iconic image for Tom Secules it would be for his leadership in the Room In
The Inn Program here at All Saints. I remember how hard he worked to bring it
about and make sure that all of our homeless guests staying here for the Room
at the Inn would be welcomed and treated with respect. The people who were down
on their lick needed to be treated as brothers and sister. He insisted that the
volunteers didn’t just put food in the kitchen but all would sit down together
and get to know each other as fellow people on the way not clients on cold
comfort charity. I remember how he dealt with a parishioner who was starting
her long slide into full dementia. She was terrified that homeless people were
going to be so close to her house. Tom was patient and kind and during that
first week she and her husband were one of the people who brought dinner one
evening and enjoyed these new neighbors. She could be a trail but she was a
fellow child of God. Tom saw no reason for pity when empathetic love was what
was needed. There was no room for pleasantry or bromides when honest strength
and wisdom could be shared. Gratuitous advice was never served up when
non-judgmental listening was on the menu. Everybody could play on Coach
Secules’ team.
Today we give thanks to God for letting us know Tom
Secules, even if it was for much too short a time.
Tom Secules: written on Palm Sunday
2017
Coach,
coach; back me up in the game!
Let
me try to hit it out of the park,
set
up the touchdown,
assist
in making the basket,
boot
it into the net.
With
you behind me I can do anything,
as
it has been since placing on this team,
when
you did that small big smiling laugh,
placing
your huge hand on my shoulder
wishing
me the best, reminding me
of
his confidence of the scouting reports.
I
did not always succeed, but even then,
the
huge hand came back on the shoulder,
saying;
“God was with you as you did your best.
Outcomes
are beyond our control,
but
never doubt that I love you.”.
I
never did.
I
knew he always did his best,
Thank
you coach.
Your
huge hand is still on our shoulders.
as
your love echoes.