A Poem
and Reflection for IV Advent St.
Andrew’s Church, Nags Head, N.C.
December 22,
2019 Thomas
E. Wilson, Supply Clergy
Isaiah 7:10-16 Romans 1:1-7 Matthew 1:18-25 Psalm 80:1-7, 16-18
Return to Royal David’s City
Today we
lit the fourth Candle of Advent which is the candle as a symbol of love. Love,
we all know about love since it is a feeling that we can “fall into”. You
remember what it is like to fall in love. We look at the object of desire and
project all sorts of qualities on that person, place or thing and our
imagination starts to sing the song that Nelson Eddy and Jeanette MacDonald
sang in the 1935 film version of the Victor Herbert 1910 operetta, Naughty
Marietta: “Ah, at last sweet mystery of life, I’ve found thee!”
I am
addicted to movies, and as with all addictions, they become the way I filter my
reactions to the world. This movie, which I first saw when I was about 12, told
me that romantic love is an addiction and I could not live without it. Other
movies and songs kept being released weekly that sent the same message and my
adolescent raging hormones searched repeatedly to find the pusher who could
provide me the high of “being in love.” I fell “in love” often, but like
Othello, “loved not wisely but too well.” I projected all sorts of magical
properties of beauty, grace, intelligence, patience, passion on the object of
desire “de jour”, but the most magical property was that she would find me
utterly fascinating and would make her whole life revolve around me forever.
The supposed supply of perfect girls was only limited by my imagination and,
while it might cost me some time, energy and money; I hoped I would not have to
change a bit or grow up. But, unlike Peter Pan, we all have to grow up. J. M
Barrie, who wrote the play Peter Pan,
wrote that Peter Pan would never grow up as long as he remained “innocent and
heartless.”
When we
start to grow up, we learn that we are not the center of the universe and that
we are cast into the ongoing struggle of people trying to find meaning in their
lives. To love, in the context of growing up is real and heartful; to have a
heart is not to be swept by emotions but to dream and upon awakening live into
the reality we find, and make a decision to change the world we live in. That meaning in life is love, which is not
projection for the purpose of one's own ego desires, but the finding of one's
heart meant to be filled with compassion and the desire to change the world for
the good of others.
In the
Gospel lesson for today, Joseph shows us how to love. He finds out that his
fiancée is pregnant and if he had “fallen in love” with her, then he would have
had to punish her for failing to live into his projections. He did not fall in
love; he loved. What does he do? Joseph opens himself up to listen to God to
find out how to respond to his heart being broken. He dreams because he knows
that when we dream the conscious ego is usually asleep and the unconscious
deeper wisdom of the spirit can be discerned. He hears God tell him to forgive
Mary before she even asks for forgiveness in hurting him. He looks at her with
love and finds the best way to redeem this blow to his ego. He claims her as
his wife and agrees to raise and love a child who is not his biological son. He
raises that son and teaches him to love his mother and to bring healing into
the world which only longs for revenge. He enters into being an immigrant
laborer in Egypt to escape the tyranny of the government of his home and taste
the bitterness of being a stranger in a strange land. He, Mary and the Infant
Jesus live fully into what it means to be persecuted. Joseph teaches his son,
by his example, how to respond to those who hate him by responding with love.
Love is not a feeling but a choice on how to live a life that matters on earth
as it is in heaven.
About a
quarter of a century ago, Pat and I spent part of my Sabbatical studying at St.
George's College in East Jerusalem. One day we took an early morning bus down
to Royal David's City, Bethlehem for the day, about a half an hour trek if you
don't get hassled by the Israeli Defense Force protecting the Israeli
settlements surrounding it on the West Bank. The first you notice coming into
this very small city is the huge neon lights of the “Il Bambino” Olive Wood
Gift Shoppe placed there to get as much of the pilgrim dollars they can get.
When you get to the Church of the Nativity, built in the 4th
Century over a cave in which, since the 2nd Century, Jesus was reputed
to have been born. The place has three denominations looking after the church
the Armenian Orthodox, Greek Orthodox and the Franciscans of the Roman
Catholics. They do not get along, they argue all the time and they are rivals
in selling stuff to gullible pilgrims, such as Holy water blessed by religious
higher ups, probably by making a sign of a cross over a fleet of trucks packed
to the gill with water from the Jordan river. It hit me as one of the tackiest
places I had ever been in.
Return to Royal David's
City
Buses pull down the grade, illumined
by glaring lights of Il Bambino Gifts,
to a baby's birth site, in town full of rifts,
tween religious views of God and human.
The pilgrim grumbles about how tacky it
seems with the pious memorabilia clutter,
any attempts to prayer, reduces to mutter
complaining of difficulty in hearing spirit.
But now a Palestinian father and son kneel;
father instructing his son how to be in awe
of mystery beyond grasp that his faith saw,
and so did the pilgrim as soul began to heal.
Heal enough to see this small town as a David
standing before a Goliath of being so jaded.
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